innermost being

I am demanding nothing
but just a sincere heart which could stay still all the while i need
and i know, things gona happen just a blip
in the end, i would receive nothing though i pay for it!!
perhaps, life is miserable,
indeed, it is.........
things really happened,
till i couldn't catch my breadth and come to the extend where i really give up...
And i know
this is the only way which could clear up everything and everything....